Friday, December 16, 2011
Monday, December 12, 2011
Saturday, December 3, 2011
Someone finally guessed I was pregnant!
So I didnt think I was really showing yet, but I guess little old ladies have a knack for seeing things others are too busy to notice.
She looked at my stomach then at me and said "Are you having a baby?" I laughed and said, "Im not THAT far along yet!" and she laughed too. She told me thats ok. She told me about how she was 9 wks late when her baby kicked her husband's hand. He jumped and she said she was going to the doctor in the morning. How cute!
She looked at my stomach then at me and said "Are you having a baby?" I laughed and said, "Im not THAT far along yet!" and she laughed too. She told me thats ok. She told me about how she was 9 wks late when her baby kicked her husband's hand. He jumped and she said she was going to the doctor in the morning. How cute!
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Thursday, October 27, 2011
October. oh the highs and lows.
Oct 19th- we got to see our little squirt. He was perfect with a strong heart beat, measuring just a few days behind my due date.
Oct 20th- we were driving home from St. G. About 1/2 way home (aka 25 minutes from a hospital in either direction), I woke and was trying to tell Jeff that he was awesome because he has been. I was slurring my words and I couldnt say what I wanted to. It was the weirdest feeling. My mouth felt like it was running out of batteries.
I panicked. Absolutely panicked. So Jeff was trying to calm me down, but my arm went numb. I seriously thought I had just lost the use of my right arm.
Long, long story short. They found a small hole in my heart (PFO). Im going to a neurologist to confirn TIA (ministroke) and maybe see if Im still at risk.
So fixing it- we probably dont need to. I havent talked to a cardiologist yet (but I will soon!) but from what Ive read most pfo's are treated with blood thinners. Im on baby aspirin for now, but very soon I will probably be a Heparin or Lovenox shot. (Im sooo making Jeff do it! :) )
Oct 27th- I switched doctors because I am not having this baby in the Cedar City hospital. I love my new OB and they instantly got me in with a High Risk OB doctor. And the most important part! I got to the see the baby again. Im far enough along to use the normal ultrasound! He was moving! I couldnt believe he was moving! Having a ball in there.
Oct 20th- we were driving home from St. G. About 1/2 way home (aka 25 minutes from a hospital in either direction), I woke and was trying to tell Jeff that he was awesome because he has been. I was slurring my words and I couldnt say what I wanted to. It was the weirdest feeling. My mouth felt like it was running out of batteries.
I panicked. Absolutely panicked. So Jeff was trying to calm me down, but my arm went numb. I seriously thought I had just lost the use of my right arm.
Long, long story short. They found a small hole in my heart (PFO). Im going to a neurologist to confirn TIA (ministroke) and maybe see if Im still at risk.
So fixing it- we probably dont need to. I havent talked to a cardiologist yet (but I will soon!) but from what Ive read most pfo's are treated with blood thinners. Im on baby aspirin for now, but very soon I will probably be a Heparin or Lovenox shot. (Im sooo making Jeff do it! :) )
Oct 27th- I switched doctors because I am not having this baby in the Cedar City hospital. I love my new OB and they instantly got me in with a High Risk OB doctor. And the most important part! I got to the see the baby again. Im far enough along to use the normal ultrasound! He was moving! I couldnt believe he was moving! Having a ball in there.
Monday, October 24, 2011
My Dear Baby
Today, and since the day I found out about you, I have loved you. I am done fearing you might not be here tomorrow. Today, you are here, and so am I, and I get to grow you a little more everyday. Today, I love you, and if you were to leave, I would never love you any less.
Growing you has been hard on my body and heart, my little one. Maybe I should tell my doctor that my heart has been growing out of love since I found out about you. In some moments of weakness, Im not sure how we're going to pull through these next 7 months. I wish I could give you a strong house to grow in. I dont feel like my body is a safe place for you, and I wish I could just have you now.
You still dont feel real, which makes all this even harder. I cant wait to feel you kick. I have already seen your heart. It was beautiful. (It better be stronger than mine!) I cant wait to see your sweet little face. Be safe in there, little one.
You are half an inch, little baby. Yet you are more important to me than anything else. Im honored to tote you around where ever I go.
Stay where you're at til you're ready to meet us. Grow strong. Grow a good heart. And have a ball this week since its the first time you'll move on your own. I love you with all my heart, my little angel.
Growing you has been hard on my body and heart, my little one. Maybe I should tell my doctor that my heart has been growing out of love since I found out about you. In some moments of weakness, Im not sure how we're going to pull through these next 7 months. I wish I could give you a strong house to grow in. I dont feel like my body is a safe place for you, and I wish I could just have you now.
You still dont feel real, which makes all this even harder. I cant wait to feel you kick. I have already seen your heart. It was beautiful. (It better be stronger than mine!) I cant wait to see your sweet little face. Be safe in there, little one.
You are half an inch, little baby. Yet you are more important to me than anything else. Im honored to tote you around where ever I go.
Stay where you're at til you're ready to meet us. Grow strong. Grow a good heart. And have a ball this week since its the first time you'll move on your own. I love you with all my heart, my little angel.
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Monday, October 3, 2011
Symptoms... not too terrible... yet...
My first symptoms my boobs hurt. This is very normal for me so didnt think a thing of it. Just waitin for my happy time. Gosh probably a whole week before I found out.
2nd- ouch! Cramps. Again... nothing to make me go "AH HA! Im pregnant!"
3rd- hotter than hell itself.
haha... I wish. More like this...
And my last symptoms- tummy troubles. I dont have "nausea" and "vomitting" -fun- but I cant eat as much. And I pay for it when I do. Stomach cramps, hiccups, burpy (tmi! thanks Jess)and all that jazz. Not fun.
Thats it for now.
2nd- ouch! Cramps. Again... nothing to make me go "AH HA! Im pregnant!"
3rd- hotter than hell itself.
haha... I wish. More like this...
And my last symptoms- tummy troubles. I dont have "nausea" and "vomitting" -fun- but I cant eat as much. And I pay for it when I do. Stomach cramps, hiccups, burpy (tmi! thanks Jess)and all that jazz. Not fun.
Thats it for now.
Yeppers. Im preggo.
So the big story.
Since we had been trying a couple months (more like 8 but my doctor still called us fertile myrtle and max...) Jeff has noticed that when I let my body tell me about a missed opportunity instead of a pee stick, I tend to take things alot better. Especially since last month was more difficult than usual. So he begged me this month to just let me do my thing and wait it out. I full heartedly agreed with him... until--
I went to the dollar store to pick up some silly halloween stuff to put on the wreath I was making my mom. I was in line, and this stupid little 1 dollar pregnancy test was staring right at me. It was like temptation. So I grabbed it hastily and hid my face a little from the checker. (Seriously... who the hell buys a 1 dollar pregnancy test!)
So I came home, did my thing, and I'll be danged. It was positive. I was almost sick. If that test was lying to me, I would have been devasted. I was so mad at myself for buying a freaking 1 dollar pregnancy test.
So I called my mom frantically. I didnt even say hello, I just said "MOM! IM FREAKING OUT!" And I explained the situation. She agreed with me! Who in their right mind buys a 1 dollar test! But I could tell she was excited. I was getting there too.
I had an excuse to go to Smiths without Jeff being too suspicious. I told him I was going to come buy some food. So I went in, bought my test, hid it in the car, and came back in (because he totally saw me!) I wasnt trying to be sneaky, but I wanted to make sure I was sure before getting his hopes up. So I totally had the other test in my pocket (eww!) and as soon as I talked to him, I broke down and showed him the test. He looked at the test, raised his eyebrows, and looked back at me. He said, "There's a line there!" and I said "I know!" I promised him I'd call him with the better results.
So... it took me 2 hours to restock (you cant drink water because it'll just dilute it) and went and peed on my $10 pee sticks instead. Yeppers. The positive line came faster than the other line.
So I called Jeff and said, "It's positive!" about 100 times, and then called my mom to tell her it was too. I said I felt like I had won the lottery. I found exactly 1 month from my last AF. Aug 27-Sept27. Our month to shine.
Me and my pregnancy boobs (already gone up a cup)
Since we had been trying a couple months (more like 8 but my doctor still called us fertile myrtle and max...) Jeff has noticed that when I let my body tell me about a missed opportunity instead of a pee stick, I tend to take things alot better. Especially since last month was more difficult than usual. So he begged me this month to just let me do my thing and wait it out. I full heartedly agreed with him... until--
I went to the dollar store to pick up some silly halloween stuff to put on the wreath I was making my mom. I was in line, and this stupid little 1 dollar pregnancy test was staring right at me. It was like temptation. So I grabbed it hastily and hid my face a little from the checker. (Seriously... who the hell buys a 1 dollar pregnancy test!)
So I came home, did my thing, and I'll be danged. It was positive. I was almost sick. If that test was lying to me, I would have been devasted. I was so mad at myself for buying a freaking 1 dollar pregnancy test.
So I called my mom frantically. I didnt even say hello, I just said "MOM! IM FREAKING OUT!" And I explained the situation. She agreed with me! Who in their right mind buys a 1 dollar test! But I could tell she was excited. I was getting there too.
I had an excuse to go to Smiths without Jeff being too suspicious. I told him I was going to come buy some food. So I went in, bought my test, hid it in the car, and came back in (because he totally saw me!) I wasnt trying to be sneaky, but I wanted to make sure I was sure before getting his hopes up. So I totally had the other test in my pocket (eww!) and as soon as I talked to him, I broke down and showed him the test. He looked at the test, raised his eyebrows, and looked back at me. He said, "There's a line there!" and I said "I know!" I promised him I'd call him with the better results.
So... it took me 2 hours to restock (you cant drink water because it'll just dilute it) and went and peed on my $10 pee sticks instead. Yeppers. The positive line came faster than the other line.
So I called Jeff and said, "It's positive!" about 100 times, and then called my mom to tell her it was too. I said I felt like I had won the lottery. I found exactly 1 month from my last AF. Aug 27-Sept27. Our month to shine.
Me and my pregnancy boobs (already gone up a cup)
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Thank you Emily... you dont even know.
So I saw a ton of ttc women have their "baby makin socks." Well... ewww... but I liked the idea. So I patiently made a silk knot bracelet that took me HOURS! It was so pretty and dainty and three really pretty little charms... we like the number 3! Emily also made me a bracelet that I wore on the other hand. So the one I made was getting a little loose. So after our little time, I was at work and the baby bracelet came off with one of my gloves. Ok, this was how I was going to tell Jeff I was pregnant (by telling him to cut it off because we didnt need it anymore) so this bracelet was very near and dear to my heart.
I was almost in tears when I realized it was gone, but then I looked at my other hand and realized the kid I loved first had my back. I still had Em's bracelet. What else are sisters for. She's a little young for this story, but I cant wait to tell her later.
Im praying that the bracelet came off because we had already gotten it? *fingers crossed
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
A thought that helped me!
So this morning, while me and Jeff were having a disagreement, I said something that now that I have thought about it, is perfectly true. I said, "Our relationship is 2 years old! 'a terrible 2 year old. It'll be self-sufficient when it's 20, but it's a toddler right now! When it was a new-born, it was perfect! It needs work now!"
And I thought wow. Yeah. If we correct it now, and work on it now, it will grow up into something very mature and self-sufficient. It's frustrating to have disagreements with someone who you love so much, but I've realized that its part of the process. When the relationship is brand new, its like a baby. It doesn't do anything wrong. As it grows up a little, it needs a lot more guidance. It needs constant watching in those early years so it can grow up a little without straying. Ive been around more toddlers than I can count. Those little boogers require an exhausting amount of work! So does our 2-year old relationship!
The great thing about babies and toddlers is that they are a blast. Its amazing to watch them grow up and learn new things. Same with us! Its a blast and our relationship is growin' like a weed!
I know I have a ton of newly married friends, and I just thought I'd share my spark of inspiration if anyone else needs a little boost.
Love at all ages!
And I thought wow. Yeah. If we correct it now, and work on it now, it will grow up into something very mature and self-sufficient. It's frustrating to have disagreements with someone who you love so much, but I've realized that its part of the process. When the relationship is brand new, its like a baby. It doesn't do anything wrong. As it grows up a little, it needs a lot more guidance. It needs constant watching in those early years so it can grow up a little without straying. Ive been around more toddlers than I can count. Those little boogers require an exhausting amount of work! So does our 2-year old relationship!
The great thing about babies and toddlers is that they are a blast. Its amazing to watch them grow up and learn new things. Same with us! Its a blast and our relationship is growin' like a weed!
I know I have a ton of newly married friends, and I just thought I'd share my spark of inspiration if anyone else needs a little boost.
Love at all ages!
Saturday, April 2, 2011
We've been together for 2 years!
Rewind to early 2009. I had been dating this dude, and thing hadnt been working out so well. He told me that I should "get a boyfriend." So... I did! I went on a dating site to line up a few dates. Found alot of old hippie hikers that lived in a tent in zions. Sad. So a few weeks later this -guy- clicks on my page. The site tells you when someone views you, so it pulled up this adorable picture
I was so offended he didnt say hi, that I decided to send him a little "Hi" through the site. And this is what I found on my (eww so passe) Myspace a few days later.
March 15th, 2009
Thanks for the Icebreaker on YP. I hope this doesn't freak you out or anything but when I get one of those and I have some interest I check to see if I can connect with that person through Mysapce. It beats paying 30 dollars/month for YP. I searched and found your profile. I hardly use Myspace otherwise.
Anyways my email is ojbudd@yahoo.com. If you have Yahoo Messenger, MSN or AOL maybe we can start there.
Have a good day
Jeff
So we kept chatting, and me and whats-his-butt kept drifting... and then...
March 23, 2009
jess
My Internet connection has been down for a couple of days so I am sending you this message from the library. My email is ojbudd@yahoo.com. Please email me soon. If my Internet is still down I will check back again in a couple of days. Id really like to meet you in the near future. So far we've clicked well through Yahoo Messenger.
Have a good one
Jeff
So we had our first date on April 3rd. All the pics I had seen were cute and he seemed like he was 27. But still, had to be sure. So I had every window open in the whole house so I could see him walk up. Right before he was supposed to get there I remembered my purse was in my bedroom. So as I ran through the hallway (no windows) I heard the doorbell. I was so mad! I was a little nervous opening the door, but in front of it was the sweetest lookin dude, who looked pretty much like this...
So we had fun on the date at Red Robin, but it was an awkward first date like usual! I was wondering what to do when we were done eating, because he had driven from Cedar to meet me. Thankfully my roomates were gone but coming back, and! I had all the windows open in the house from trying to see him, so I felt ok about inviting "Cedar" inside. We snuggled up on the couch and it was so nice! Every time I would push on his arms around me, he would squeeze me. It was so dang cute.
So alas... that was 2 years ago tomorrow.
We celebrated Wednesday by going out to Red Lobster and getting alot of lobster and a lava cookie!
And then we watched Killer Klowns from Outter Space
If you havent seen this... you need to! Bookmark it, its worth it. Its silly and entertaining. Loved it.
http://www.hulu.com/watch/135809/killer-klowns-from-outer-space
And today! Jeff woke me up (at 6 in the morning!) to give me a dozen red roses and...
My new wedding band!!!
My camera isnt loading my pic, but here it is from the website...
Its so beautiful and I love it! And it looks great with my engagement ring.
So Happy Anniversary to my baby! I love you so much. This is also the anniversary for the best day of my life. Heres to a heck of alot more, Babe.
I was so offended he didnt say hi, that I decided to send him a little "Hi" through the site. And this is what I found on my (eww so passe) Myspace a few days later.
March 15th, 2009
Thanks for the Icebreaker on YP. I hope this doesn't freak you out or anything but when I get one of those and I have some interest I check to see if I can connect with that person through Mysapce. It beats paying 30 dollars/month for YP. I searched and found your profile. I hardly use Myspace otherwise.
Anyways my email is ojbudd@yahoo.com. If you have Yahoo Messenger, MSN or AOL maybe we can start there.
Have a good day
Jeff
So we kept chatting, and me and whats-his-butt kept drifting... and then...
March 23, 2009
jess
My Internet connection has been down for a couple of days so I am sending you this message from the library. My email is ojbudd@yahoo.com. Please email me soon. If my Internet is still down I will check back again in a couple of days. Id really like to meet you in the near future. So far we've clicked well through Yahoo Messenger.
Have a good one
Jeff
So we had our first date on April 3rd. All the pics I had seen were cute and he seemed like he was 27. But still, had to be sure. So I had every window open in the whole house so I could see him walk up. Right before he was supposed to get there I remembered my purse was in my bedroom. So as I ran through the hallway (no windows) I heard the doorbell. I was so mad! I was a little nervous opening the door, but in front of it was the sweetest lookin dude, who looked pretty much like this...
So we had fun on the date at Red Robin, but it was an awkward first date like usual! I was wondering what to do when we were done eating, because he had driven from Cedar to meet me. Thankfully my roomates were gone but coming back, and! I had all the windows open in the house from trying to see him, so I felt ok about inviting "Cedar" inside. We snuggled up on the couch and it was so nice! Every time I would push on his arms around me, he would squeeze me. It was so dang cute.
So alas... that was 2 years ago tomorrow.
We celebrated Wednesday by going out to Red Lobster and getting alot of lobster and a lava cookie!
And then we watched Killer Klowns from Outter Space
If you havent seen this... you need to! Bookmark it, its worth it. Its silly and entertaining. Loved it.
http://www.hulu.com/watch/135809/killer-klowns-from-outer-space
And today! Jeff woke me up (at 6 in the morning!) to give me a dozen red roses and...
My new wedding band!!!
My camera isnt loading my pic, but here it is from the website...
Its so beautiful and I love it! And it looks great with my engagement ring.
So Happy Anniversary to my baby! I love you so much. This is also the anniversary for the best day of my life. Heres to a heck of alot more, Babe.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
My Chili Recipe
So as I was looking for stuff to through in my chili and I pulled out BBQ sauce and bacon and thought... why have I never had chili with bacon in it??? SO here's what I threw together!
1/2 pound a hamburger
1 regular can of hot chili beans
1 medium can of tomato paste (1 1/2 can of water)
3 slices of bacon (chopped up of course)
Good squeeze of BBQ sauce
'Bout 1/4 of an onion chopped up
Good spoonful of minced garlic
Good shake of seasoned of seasoned salt
Really, really good shake of Chili powder
Shake of parsley flakes
And finally a spoonful of beef bouillon
AND I FORGOT THE BEST PART! Fajita seasoning instead of a chili packet!
Cooked it about an hour in my dutch oven.
This does not make alot! Im pretty good at cooking for 2 and this just barely gave us enough leftovers for chili dogs!
Also made cornbread in this...
Made the best Chili tonight!
It was amazing!
1/2 pound a hamburger
1 regular can of hot chili beans
1 medium can of tomato paste (1 1/2 can of water)
3 slices of bacon (chopped up of course)
Good squeeze of BBQ sauce
'Bout 1/4 of an onion chopped up
Good spoonful of minced garlic
Good shake of seasoned of seasoned salt
Really, really good shake of Chili powder
Shake of parsley flakes
And finally a spoonful of beef bouillon
AND I FORGOT THE BEST PART! Fajita seasoning instead of a chili packet!
Cooked it about an hour in my dutch oven.
This does not make alot! Im pretty good at cooking for 2 and this just barely gave us enough leftovers for chili dogs!
Also made cornbread in this...
Made the best Chili tonight!
It was amazing!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Its my Mommy's birthday!
Here's to you Mom!
So we just had a huge ordeal where Jeff got a new job that took us back to St G, then another new job that took us back to Cedar City. I really enjoyed hanging out with my mom. Its so often that being the night owl I am, I dont have alot of company before I crash into bed. I liked it so much that when I left (Im not kidding Mom) I cried when me and Jeff laid down that night. Ok people, I have moved across the freaking country without crying. I drove up the road a little and cried myself to sleep (At 21 and married).
My mom knows a little more why this leave was a little more difficult, but thats awesome mom and daughter stuff, isnt mom ;) I just really care about you and youre happiness
So that got me thinking of all the times I plopped right back in the nest.
1st- "moved out" -kinda- to Florida for school... that was fun but gosh I was 18. Kinda hard to spread my wings $9k in debt :)
2nd- Moved back to Mom's after FL. Emily was huge, so glad to be back with my family and my mommy after such a hard year. Really went through some crap when I got back so I therefore turned into a punk and moved out on my own. Which was cool until...
3rd-MOM TO THE RESCUE! Quit my job and couldnt even afford the $200 bucks I was paying Tommy and Tonya. Wasnt quite ready to move in with Jeff, so I moved back in with Mom! Gosh SHES PATIENT! But then me and Jeff got engaged and moved in together and got married.
4th- Jeff's store closed down, but he got a job in St G. Kinda silly to live in Cedar when we both work in St G so Mom to the rescue again!
So I have made the leap 4 times!-!-!-!
So anyways Ive had my mom on the brain this week. She's really outstanding. She's very patient. I love her very much. I know you hate birthdays, but its your day, so have at it. Im so happy her nest is always open! (and the next time I come to your nest its with German Chocolate cake, so maybe I can earn some of that awesomeness youve given me for so long)
Love ya!
So we just had a huge ordeal where Jeff got a new job that took us back to St G, then another new job that took us back to Cedar City. I really enjoyed hanging out with my mom. Its so often that being the night owl I am, I dont have alot of company before I crash into bed. I liked it so much that when I left (Im not kidding Mom) I cried when me and Jeff laid down that night. Ok people, I have moved across the freaking country without crying. I drove up the road a little and cried myself to sleep (At 21 and married).
My mom knows a little more why this leave was a little more difficult, but thats awesome mom and daughter stuff, isnt mom ;) I just really care about you and youre happiness
So that got me thinking of all the times I plopped right back in the nest.
1st- "moved out" -kinda- to Florida for school... that was fun but gosh I was 18. Kinda hard to spread my wings $9k in debt :)
2nd- Moved back to Mom's after FL. Emily was huge, so glad to be back with my family and my mommy after such a hard year. Really went through some crap when I got back so I therefore turned into a punk and moved out on my own. Which was cool until...
3rd-MOM TO THE RESCUE! Quit my job and couldnt even afford the $200 bucks I was paying Tommy and Tonya. Wasnt quite ready to move in with Jeff, so I moved back in with Mom! Gosh SHES PATIENT! But then me and Jeff got engaged and moved in together and got married.
4th- Jeff's store closed down, but he got a job in St G. Kinda silly to live in Cedar when we both work in St G so Mom to the rescue again!
So I have made the leap 4 times!-!-!-!
So anyways Ive had my mom on the brain this week. She's really outstanding. She's very patient. I love her very much. I know you hate birthdays, but its your day, so have at it. Im so happy her nest is always open! (and the next time I come to your nest its with German Chocolate cake, so maybe I can earn some of that awesomeness youve given me for so long)
Love ya!
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Bicycle races are coming today!
So Jeff has been talking about getting a bike since we got together 2 years ago. We werent living together soon enough in summer and then we were too busy this summer. And obviously living in the frozen tundra of Cedar City doesnt inspire bike-riding desires. And not to mention, every time he asked me about whether I wanted a bike I said nah. Theyre unstable and I probably wouldnt like it. I hadnt ridden one since I was 10ish.
So now that we are staying with my mom we found an old bike in her garage that worked great. So a few days ago, Jeff rode the bike to the park and strolled along a little behind. Once we were at the park, I asked if I could just... try it.
Fast forward 5 miuntes... me laughing as I peddled past him as fast as I could to go faster down the hill. Freaking loved it! I went back out later that day, and again that night with Emily. And went today for a long ride. Its freaking awesome! Why have I deprived myself for all these years!
And yes. I wear my garter and black thigh highs when I go too.
So now that we are staying with my mom we found an old bike in her garage that worked great. So a few days ago, Jeff rode the bike to the park and strolled along a little behind. Once we were at the park, I asked if I could just... try it.
Fast forward 5 miuntes... me laughing as I peddled past him as fast as I could to go faster down the hill. Freaking loved it! I went back out later that day, and again that night with Emily. And went today for a long ride. Its freaking awesome! Why have I deprived myself for all these years!
And yes. I wear my garter and black thigh highs when I go too.
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